July 30th, 2020 - My 26th Birthday!
The weeks leading up to my birthday were filled with mini reflections here and there. Usually, by the day before my birthday, I have a well thought out Instagram caption drafted out in my notes or journal ready to illustrate the goodness of God in my life and any other encouraging word that the Holy Spirit may lead me to write. However, during the week of my birthday, the only thing I kept saying was "Holy Spirit, Carry Me!". Of course, this was semi inspired by the worship song "Carry Me" by Nathaniel Bassey, but at the core, it was heavily stirred by the book of the Acts of the Apostles (sooo many gems that I will definitely be sharing over time).
As I was studying the chapter last month, I was reminded of how much we are in NEED of the Holy Spirit in everything that we do! How sometimes I/we fail to acknowledge Him and as a result hit roadblocks that could have easily been avoided had we just been inclined to His promptings. It was because of the lasting influence of the Holy Spirit that the apostles/disciples were able to stand steadfast and be bold in the face of persecution and adversity. Because of the Holy Spirit, they were empowered to sell ALL they had, all their properties and distribute the earnings to the churches in need in different regions. Because of the Holy Spirit, they were able to love, forgive, and have compassion even for their enemies and that compassion led them to continually share AND display the Gospel to those who persecuted them. I started to pray and check myself in various areas where I may not be heeding the Holy Spirit's guidance. I repented for the times I had dismissed his promptings and wrote them off as my own thoughts instead. Because I mean, why would the Holy Spirit speak to me about something and someone so minuscule and random? It was in these tiny moments that I realized that the Lord had been answering my prayers and taking me on a journey of re-learning His voice. I began to intentionally take inventory of every distraction and slowly uproot them from my heart and life. It is not always an easy thing to walk in accordance with the Holy Spirit. Even the bible tells us that the gate is narrow and the way to eternal life is hard. But if my goal is to be more Christ-like and my gaze is fixed on Him, then it is absolutely worth it.
With that being said, in year 26, I am ready for the uprooting, pruning, molding, leading, chastening, and guidance of the Holy Spirit. I am ready for it all. I am expectant. After all, I have been praying for this, so my heart is wide open for the Journey that has already begun.
I am a pilgrim on a physical and spiritual journey. This earth is not my real home. What I am living for is far greater than any temporary earthly pleasure. I want to please the Father in all things and in every facet of my life. I want to live intentionally and largely like someone fully aware of her identity in Christ. I want my light to shine so brightly that when people see me they will see a true depiction of Christ, turn to Him & seek Him wholeheartedly. This alone is my greatest heart's desire.
God Bless You,
Sandra Adeyemi xo